It is Friday Night.

Reality Bites!

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What a world we live in. It is Friday night now. When did it take on a different meaning? I have a ton of friends, whom each and every one of them are living their own lives. When we were in our teens or twenties or even our thirties the loneliness of being an individual seemed to take on a different meaning. Now it smacks us in the face full force. Do we conform? Is that the answer? I fight it, but maybe that is the way it is meant to be. On the other hand maybe that is what is wrong with society. Maybe that is why so many lost souls are looking for answers in the chemical world. We are not winning the war on drugs.

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Now the question is: Am I alone? Are any of us truly alone? Maybe we are all alone. Maybe that is the point of the journey. Maybe ultimately we all some day have to accept it. Fridays used to have a different meaning. They used to mean hanging with my peers, my friends, in search of love, in search of finding our true destinies. Somehow it has changed. Now, while all of my close friends retreat to their lives, to what makes them complete, some of us seek the answers of life from a different source. Our reality has become clear. We need to cloud it. Do I have another drink? After all, our youth clouds us to the point where we think we know the answers. Having another drink is never a question. It is the rite of passage. Now youth judges. Nothing could be more fleeting. You remember the days where you figured you knew all of the answers. The questions is: When did it become vague? We all need love. But at what expense?

Many lost souls in the current version of the world believe, that if they are not alone, they are ok. What an illusion. So many of these lost individuals live in a world of conditions and expectations. They are looking for validation. It just doesn’t exist. You can only validate your own existence. Romeo didn’t really need Juliet. The tragedy of life is played out in a never ending cycle. Aloneness becomes one. Yet one always finds a way to become alone.

It is the journey that matters. I also need to be validated. However, I choose to be the one doing the validation. Maybe that is the easy way out. Maybe life has clouded reality. I don’t truly know. All I really know is that it is Friday night. I am basically happy. Alone - but happy. I think I will go watch Medical Investigation…………….